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everyones life exists around a rhythm, it starts in the heart and spreads, hands, feet, brain, speech, expressions. the rhythm contains feelings and emotions, it guides you along a line of life and adventure. rhythm is in my heart, being a drummer and musician it’s integral. it controls every feeling weather i’m sat behind drums, talking to a set of people or my girlfriend, walking down the corridor at school or flicking through cd’s in a record shop. i feel the most comfortable when i’m sat behind a drum set with a bass line and sitting in a pocket groove. disco inferno has made furthered my drumming ability and had pushed my love for funk and groove music to the forefront of my musical repertoire. cliche as it sounds, for me this statement is not just said vaguely, music is my life and my heart, it crafted who i am and the way i do things. i love the rhythm my life has beaten. when this rhythm finds it’s way to you, lock in the pocket with it and let it work it’s magic, it might not come back if you ignore it.

things are splendid, veryyy happy :)

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there are hidden passages in life that creep up unnoticed and suprise you, some of these are good and some bad, sometimes these passages unlock a world of mystery and adventure, and some unearth past loves that are reconciled. if it wasn’t for one of these paths, poetry and literature would probably be concealed in a cell away from my heart, but instead these two loves of mine are within me and i thank human nature for this. i love an unexpected chord in music, or an unexpected harmony that really stands out and packs something emphatic and lasting, the first time i heard the chorus of christopher’s river - biffy clyro, i felt a sence of music wandering within my bones and wrapping it’s self around me, biffy clyro seem to do this alot to me, especially the previous song and ”all the way down” the way the melody drops and winds around in my eyes is beauty in a pure form.

i love the way people connect to one another through songs, and join through songs being introduced and how people share the same love for music, for a while i felt stagnated and bogged down because people looked at me funnily due to the way music connects to me, but i’ve found people that share the same love for it and connection, which is priceless and lovely.

passages in life have shaped me, the last two years made me strong and helped me to grow up alot and realise that i get one chance to really grab what i want in life and i’m going to get it. it helped me respect things in life more and not take things for granted, i’m so lucky i have a caring family and friends.

if the avenue crops up in life, walk down it, because you never know what may appear at the end…

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i think throughout life there are always parts of life you want to grab this instant, for me, i just want to be living music with people i care about people that care about me. i can’t help but feel really scared about september, it’s looming. don’t get me wrong, it’s what i want to do and where i want to be. i’m gonna have to depend upon myself and meet new friends and forge a new ‘group’ i hope so much i get put in a dorm with people i get along with. that will mean the world and probably allow me to flower quicker in leeds. i miss my band so much, every day i want to play music, i feel like part of my jigsaw is out at sea, josh and beka have made me who i am now at this moment. they mean the world to me. ive pretty much lived the past two years in their pockets. i really miss people too, people i sadly cant see, i wish i could hear that 5 o clock phone call again…these people remain in my heart forever x

it’s like my life is one book, but two routes that join in the middle, two paths, currently one is at the forefront and the other is overshadowed, which is lovely for it to be casted over with good things. i assume in september these two routes will meet and cast two more paths to another ending, an ending that i hope and am determined to make the greatest possible ending i can.

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in every human being there are always hidden pockets, sometimes these are never unearthed, alot are found, and when these are found it can bring happiness, emotion and joy. i love coming across these pockets, it adds a third dimension to things and means you can store your own feelings about it in your own pocket.

i especially love it in music, alot of people listen to a band that have say screaming vocals in parts, and immediately jump to the common conclusion of oh ‘this isnt music to me’ when in fact, it can hide some of the deepest emotions ever laced in vocals, and people who decide to delve into this pocket of emotion can relate to these feelings and emotions, it takes someone who is willing to search for these feelings to really portray emotion. it took me a long time to feel comfotable listening to screams in songs, and now i get it. one human, screaming their deepest emotions out, into a pocket for audiences to reach for. i grasp every emotion in a song, until it rips through me, i feel the need to believe in what my heroes proclaim, i feel everyone shouldn’t presume that because something is different, it’s not real, or ‘correct’ and when people presume this it angers me and drives me further into this pocket of emotion and poetry.

acceptancy

this week a huge weight was lifted of my shoulders, i had longed for 2 years to get an offer to study at leeds college of music, and waheyyy 2 months earlier than expected i got a perfect offer, and my path seems to have been forged. i also realised what i really see my goal in life to be, after discovering the music of suede and bernard butler, it became clear that i wanted to produce music, and play drums on the songs, i literally get so into any form of mix down and production that i can’t wait to hear anyones haha, like for example, i reeeeally want to hear jess’ little boots remedy multi tracks, she’s been bombarded with the question…”has it got the synths” for the past months haha

this coming week looks really nice, rehersals all week grooving funky 70’s tunes with callum, and seeing jess on friday and sunday :) slight dabble of somerfield in there sadly but heyyy.

im dyiiiiiiiiing to play the drums, but all my gear is in schooollllllllll, baaaah, next week should be nice and chilled, goood times!

right so i guess this is goodbye…

sleep tight….planet earth xxx